how i’ve been feelin’ lately
It’s a bit comforting to know that someone else feels the same way.
Oh man, 19-year-old-me totally relates to this. And as a former worried-19-year-old-artist turning 30 at the end of the month I gotta say DON’T BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF GUYS!!!! If you keep drawing, practicing, learning, putting your stuff out there and working towards your goals, you’ll get there. Maybe not right this minute, maybe not as fast as you’d like, but the more life you live, the more people you meet, the more experience you gain, you’ll find those doors opening when you’re ready for them. And if they don’t, you’ll start building your own doors. Don’t beat yourself up if you’re not there yet. Keep drawing, keep learning, and try to enjoy the ride!
When you’re 19, 19 feels super old. But you’re really, really not. You don’t have to have your path set by then. I remember being 19 and thinking if I didn’t meet my future wife that year, I’d be alone forever. If I didn’t have a major book deal by then, I’d never make it. If I didn’t go there or do that or meet so-and-so, I never would. Fuck, 19. I was still a wee thing, making mistakes that didn’t ruin my life and missing opportunities that ended up being replaced by other opportunities.
If I’d have my life set in stone by the time I was 19, if I had to follow that path forever, I wouldn’t be doing the awesome things I’m doing now. They only happened because of brand new things I picked up long after I left my teens.
I’m 24 and barely know what I’m doing. I stress about it sometimes, but all you can do is just keep working.